This is what I wrote to a NDEs Research Foudation. It took me 38 years to tell my story because I was told not to by my Guides.(Angels). They also told me that one day I could. At age 8 my father took me and my 2 brother( ages 10 and 11) to go fishing in a river called (Rio Guaiba) In Porto Alegre- Brazil. It was a hot day and very sunny. When we got there my father was setting up camp when we ask him if we could walk up river a little bit. At first he said no, but after we begged a little bit he agreed, but told us not to go in the water, he said that a few times.
We started to walk near the water and we got to this bush that was half in the land and half on the water. I don't remember which one of us had the idea to go in the water grabbing the bush to get to the other side. My brother Marco age 10 went first, He took a few steps and I don't remember well how he lost hi's footing but he did, he went under, then my older brother Carlon tried to help him and went under also, I don't know why but I went after them, note (we didn't know how to swim).
I stared to panic, I was really scared, I remember trying to breath but I couldn't, water was going in instead, there was no more oxygen, I remember moving my arms and legs frantically trying to save my life. I remember my body hitting things under water, I don't know what I was hitting me but it was painful. That day the river was moving fast from west to east towards the ocean. I don't know how much time went by but I couldn't move any more, I remember just floating under water and I hit bottom. the water was brown and I couldn't see anything. I knew I was dying and I screamed PLEASE GOD HELP ME!. (My mom used to take me to church).
I don't know how but I knew that God was the only one that could help me. That was when I felt my life fading, then I heard the most pleasing voice telling me to relax and that everything was going to be o.k. I then felt this arms embracing me, I knew it was a men and he was very kind and gentle. I was so happy and confused at the same time. We were floating in mid air. I then realize that I was not dead, not yet anyway. I sensed we were going up very fast.
All my pains were gone and I could breath again. My body was not solid anymore, I could see right through it, but I could feel me. Then I saw that we going towards this light, slowly at first. When we got close to the light, the light just engulf me. It was brighter than the sun but didn't hurt my eyes. The angel that was we me said "tchau" and faded away.
I was floating there for a moment thinking, "what's happening?" I felt connected to everything and that everything was connected to me. (hard to explain) Then I felt I was not alone anymore. I could see this shape of a man coming closer. When he got close enough, I felt the most beautiful feeling of love and belonging, there's no words my human mind can said to describe this feelings (sorry). Imagine yourself in an airplane and the airplane blows up! Then you wake-up (just a dream). Kind of like that. I was so happy I wasn't dead for real, but where am I? (that place felt more real then this one).
This angel (I call them angels) came closer to my right side and spoke to me, but his lips was not moving. He was talking to my mind. I could hear him through mind, being, and my soul. He told me he was there to help me with my questions (and boy did I have questions) but first he started to show me my life like a movie (hard to explain). My life was going backwards. I remember thinking "How bad can this be, I'm only 8 years old."
The first image I saw was something bad that I did (I used a key to scratch a car). I could feel the pain that I cause because of my actions. Then I remember thinking "Oooh no! I'm in trouble!" My angel surprised me by saying "don't worry, these are just lessons." I remember thinking "Oh crap, he can read my mind too." He heard that too and gave me this lovely, beautiful smile.
This movie was showing, second by second my entire life; everything I saw I could feel the results of it. Like, everything I did had a life of its own. Like when I felt the owner of the car feelings and thoughts, then he told his wife about it and I could feel her pain too, and on and on and on. (not a good feeling).
He didn't show me just the bad things I did, he show me the things I did out of love too. He showed me the time I took this homeless boy I become friends with. I took him home with me, we shower together, we eat together and I give him some of my cloths too. I could feel how happy I made my angel feel. He told me that those are the things that really matter, those where the things that will make a difference in the world for the better.
As my life was going backwards I saw me as a baby inside my mother, then just a molecule of life, really really small but alive. Today when I see women having an abortion I want to cry. They don't understand that God give them this child for a reason, that she was chosen by that life (child). Don't know how I know that, I just do!.
Then the movie stop and he said two words and Everything I wanted to know was answer by it. (like a package deal). All my questions was answered in an instant. Then I started to miss my life as I knew it. I started to think about my mother and I could feel her pain when she heard the news that all her sons died. I knew my angel was showing me this because it wasn't my time, my mission wasn't done. What mission? I still don't know. I don't know how long all of this took, I didn't have the sense of time anymore. (but if I try, it will take years to show and tell everything.)
Anyway, I was missing my life and I want to go back. I had flashbacks about playing soccer with my friend, being hugged by my mom, the sun the rain, things that made me happy. I also knew my angel did this for a reason because any sane person would not want to go back. I also realize for the first how beautiful and fragile Earth really is. I could sense the earth breathing like it was alive. I could see a light around everything that was alive, trees, flowers, grass, animals, volcanoes and humans. I sense that humans were in control over other living things, I have the word (aura) stamped in mind ever since.
Don't know why but the angel told me not tell anyone and that time will revealed itself. I said "What"? But then I felt a jolt in my soul, a feeling that I was back in my body. Next thing I know, I was being hold by another angel. He was pushing me out of the water. It was then that I realize that I was human again. Oh my god, what a feeling! I wish I could make everyone feel that feeling. Then I felt like I was drunk, the first thing I saw was this beautiful blue sky and I could breath again. Then I realize, "Where my brothers?" I Look to my right and there they were, walking out of the water with me! OH MY GOD! THANK-YOU! THANK-YOU! THANK-YOU! I have tear in my eyes thinking about it. Our God and father is so good to us.
Then I saw people rushing towards us, some were crying, some were smiling and hugging each other. They felt as happy as I did! Why? Than this police officer was talking on his radio he said, "I found them, I found the kids!" He told the others to come up river, the other officers were looking for us down river were they thought we were. After couple of minutes they got there and said, "This can't be them! They couldn't survive 22 minutes underwater and talk about it! The medical personal that was there agreed with them, and they all went back down river. I was trying to tell what happened but I couldn't speak. I mean my mouth was moving but no sound. I look up in the sky and said "Please give me my voice back, I won't tell anyone!' I got my voice back! I got a little stutter today but I don't care about that.
For all I know they still looking for us. I don't know which is better, being back here or having the knowledge that we never die. Today, I take things as they came and I try to do everything with love. But that sometimes is really hard because we live in a world of uncertainty. Some people don't know who God really is. They make it really hard for me to love them as I should, but I forgive them and love them on the inside, even though I don't show them sometimes. God knows what I mean. My brother's and I never talked about this till Christmas of 2007 (37 years later). I ask Marco if remember anything, he told me that an angel ask him not talk about it. A week went by and I ask Carlon what happened. He said that we died and that an angel saved us. He said he also saw the movie. I don't know why but we never got too deep on this conversation. I think we are scared that something would happen, because we were ask not to. If you guys don't hear from me you know why.
As I get older I have the urge to tell the world that God and heaven is very real. I have to be very responsible when talking about this. I don't feel that I am the one writing this, but my soul. I pray that one day the human race, the sons and daughters of God will live on Earth with that Love and Peace that I felt, and come to the realization that we are one and we never die.
Additional questions and answers: Greetings! Dr Long. Thanks for letting me share. You ask me some questions and I'll tell you as best as I can. I didn't sense the voice I heard it. I was told not to tell anyone. so the best way to answer this I have to put myself back on that day. I saw and felt all the wanders of the universe and how all things were made and how the earth will be one day. I remember knowing all that, but as soon I come back everything went blank.
When I got out of water I could Sense that a peace of that place was still with me. I try to tell people and I couldn't, I wanted to tell my mom one day but when I open my mouth I felt this emptiness inside like my soul left my body but I was in my body and not my soul (just for a second). That was very scary. It was the upset of what I experienced. Imagine a body with no soul!.
So I been living like this ever since. Hiding! For your second question, I called Marco after work and ask him a few questions and told him about you. He told me that he saw the light, he saw his review and they told him things too, he had no pain and could breath, he felt loved and that he told the angels he wanted to come back. And the angel told him not to tell anyone. My brother Carlon says the same things. And we all saw the same angel when we got out of water. He had dark skin, tall and beautiful. But no wings. I tell you more someday.( I hope).
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes To me I find hard to find word's to describe the beauty of it all, the sense of peace and the reality of it all. At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes! I was under water for 22 minutes.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I never lost my consciousness and alertness.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal? I went from being alive to being 100000 x more alive. My real life realy began after I had died.
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: There's no hiding agenda in Heaven. I became one with the one. For the first time I truly felt alive.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes I feel they didn't show me everything for a reason. But what I saw was very real. I mean more real than what I see here. I never felt more alive in my life.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? Yes I didn't here things with my ears, I heard things with my soul. (hard to explain)
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, love, and loved, alive, but I had the feeling that I was not who I thought I was, feelings of belonging, joy, extremely happy, Tell me a good feeling and I had that ten fold.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes! If felt like a tunnel because there was a light in the distance.
Did you see a light? Yes I can cry just thinking about the light. I felt that the light was God. But, I was 8 years old.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes! They told who they were but I can't remember the words, I call them angels. I didn't recognize them, but they knew me! They told me lots of things. He was on my right side. And I didn't felt he was Jesus.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes I describe everything above. And yes I had my review.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain Things come and go as I need them or it's time for it.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes I saw the lights on living things on Earth.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes! Past, Present and Future were all rap together.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes When I walk out of the water I sense and knew I could do something that I couldn't do before, but something was holding me back and I didn't try it. (kind of scared) Today I go to church and I think I know more than the pastors do. I think only after we die we really understand what the bible is.( Our manual to get back home). The bible is all about that love I felt there. The only time I really feel alive here is when I'm in love with a girl, but it's very painful when they don't feel the same way. When I'm in love everything feels alive music, air, rain, sunshine. I can feel GOD again. Again, hard to explain.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? !I felt the boundary, like I was in a waiting room or welcome room and if I past that room There was no way back.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes I became the best goalie in my town. I went professional right before we moved to America. I could see or feel the path of where the ball would end up. I become one of the best limo driver people ever saw. Once I drove about 10 miles with a glass of wine on the roof of my limo. People were telling me to pullover, when I did and saw that I knew I was not alone. today I have a painting business and people tell me I'm a real artist. I just try to do my best with everything I do.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes It took me 36 years to feel free to talk about it. My mom was the first. My wife was the second. I told my pastor about it 1 years ago. (he was of no help at all). I want to scream to the world what I went thru, but I feel I can't. Can you help?
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real As real as you are viewing this words.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? I don't want to just yet, but one thing I can say is that "loving one another is the most important thing we can do to save our souls"
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real More real now then ever. when I was in my 20's doctors told me I could never have a baby. My son is 8 year old. Nothing is impossible to God.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes! I became aware about the need of others.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes! God Is alive! he is inside of me. I know is hard to believe but he is. He is inside all of us.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Yes but my little miracle wants to use the computer, sorry. email me anytime.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes I don't think you can lie about this.
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Just tell the world!!!
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